Curahan Hati

Mungkin penulisan ku kali ni jauh berbeza dari sebelumnya. yang pasti semuanya ringkas dan padat dan straight forward.

utk kesekian kalinya baru ada kesempatan utk ku meluahkan rasa yg terpendam selama ini.

rahsia suami isteri hanya suami isteri sj yg tahu. yg, memang benar, akan tetapi mampukah hati ini utk menanggung segala keperitan, penipuan, ketidakjujuran yg dilakukan oleh salah seorg darinya? akal dan fikiran tidak bersependapat membuatkan otak bercelaru dan mengabaikan kesihatan sendiri. kemana harus diluahkan perasaan ini? dipendam diri sendiri yang binasa. segala kerja terabai, tidak mampu menumpukan perhatian, ditambah lagi bebanan kerja yang diberikan.. hanya tuhan yang tahu perasaan dan keadaan ketika itu.

mungkin dgn cara ini dpt sedikit sebanyak mengurangkan seksa yang ditanggung. membuka pekung didada? ya mungkin tpi salah kah ia jika hanya ingin memberi keinsafan dan pengajaran kepada yang berkenaan? ku tepuk dada dan ku tanya diriku. tidak salah. mungkin ada yg tidak bersependapat dgn jawapan ini, tetpi ini aku dan ini kehendak ku. pemikiran ini terhasil mungkin kerana dari perasaan yang dihimpit oleh masalah yg menimpa.

facebook.. juga satu cara utk ku menghilangkan (walaupun tidak hilang sepenuhnya) masalah yang dihadapi.. sentiasa update status, post gambar, check in kemana diri pergi. ada yang meluat? sebelum menjwab soalan itu, mengapa tidak tanya, ok kah ia? ada masalah kah? inda apa, atu caranya? mungkin dgn pertnyaan2 seperti ini akan menenggelamkan perasaan meluat itu. setiap tingkahlaku ada penyebabnya dan itu lah antara sebab agar ku dpt meringankan bebanan yang ku tanggung.

hidup bersuami isteri memang mencabar. bagi ku ada 2 perkara penting dlm kehidupan bersuami isteri iaitu JUJUR dan PERCAYA. dlm diri ku aku tidak lengkap dengan salah satu darinya.. PERCAYA. aku tidak mampu utk mempercayai suami ku sendiri. mengapa? kerana semuanya berpunca dari perangai nya sendiri. mampukah kamu mempercayai suami kamu yang mendusai kamu? tidak mahu mengaku kesilapan yg dlakukan nya walhal perkara itu sudah terbukti dan bukti itu isteri sendiri mendapati? dgn bersumpah kepada Allah dia tetap tidak mengakuinya menambahkn lagi dan menipiskan lagi kepercayaan kepadanya. hendak menegakkan benang yg basah, mungkin itu yg ingin dilakukan nya..

sesungguhnya curahan ku ini tak kn berakhir disini. akan ku sambung dihari kemudian.. terima kasih kepada yg sudi membacanya..

Assalam....

Our New Hobby

Well STTP, kami ada hobby baru, i.e having a pet cats. Pics below speaks louder than words so lets scroll it down :))


This is Alvo Gandalf a.k.a Smokey. Its a He. He was born on 19th July 2010 n now he is 3 months old. We bought him from Ka Lina at Sg Buloh.

Smokey was an active kitten when we 1st met him n he IS still active now but abit heavy already tho. We love him soooo much.

29th Sept 2010 was the day we brought him to his new home n due to his activeness, he can mingle around with d family. Everyone was amused by his attitude. It was a warm welcome to Alvo.

Smokey is toilet trained. On the 1st day, we put him in the cage with all his foods n litter bowl inside. Then we opened the door n he could find his foods n litter bowl by himself. So everytime he wants to 'pupu' he will get inside his cage.

In terms of grooming, Smokey was afraid of hairdryer (as the owner told us). 1st time we bath him n dryer., he was TOTALLY EXTREAMLY afraid wif the hairdryer. So i put him inside the carrier n let him familiar with the sound. He do hate it at 1st but soon or later he adapt to it. NOW he didnt afraid of the hairdryer anymore yet i still place him inside coz he cant stay still. He also didnt like to be brush nor clean his eyes n ears but as we always done it, he is now changed n well.... tho its not a big change, yet he is changing being a good cat :)

Every nights, he sleeps with us in the bedroom. Sometimes on the pillow above my head n usually under the bed but around 4am, he will wakes me up (but he is actually wanna sleeps on me). He was being spoiled by us :)

I know, its not enough to talk about Smokey yet need to stop it here.

Few weeks after that, here come Chacha.

Fullname: Red Dreamer
Born: 28th July 2010

Will get back soon :)

Finally, my new lens is here already!!! :) n i am sooooo eager to snap2! Well the anxiety is high now so Im off!

Oh ya, today will be off to KK with Lynn n Rozy. Flight at 4ish. balik esuk. n yeah, we're staying at Grand Borneo Hotel. Will update more till we come back!

C ya!! (' ',)v

So cannot wait for my new lens EF-S10-22mm!!! n Will Be Back In Actions!!! Miss photography sooo much!!!! :D

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan
&
Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa

Moga Doa, Amalan, Puasa kita diterima oleh Nya..

Amin....


Ikhlas Daripada,

Saifful & Zeha

| Last Day, 2nd August 2010 |

Goodbye Blue Subie.. Will miss you.

Its been with us since 16th Feb 2008, a month before me n darl get married, as he wish to have his own car b4 dat.

As I dont know much on sports car, all I can say is dat, it is very fast tho not as faster as GTR R35. Well perform on Street racing. Darl been drove on maximum meter (only if im not with him). Its on a club member of Pingu. Darl had invested lots on this car to maintained the performance.

But den, darl decided to sell it coz of some reasons, n one of the reason is dat bcoz of I cant ride on it ( menjaga peranakanku) he said. So dgn berat hati kami pun menjualnya...

On the day, its the most hardest n saddest feeling. I did cry like a baby.. Mcm putus cinta pun ada jua rasanya. Inda tau mengapa kah ya, mayb sebab susah senang menjaga nya atu x.

Now, its not with us anymore, but darl decided to get a new one yet still dlm process masani. so just wait n see lah nanti :) but for sure will not setanding dgn blue subie ani..

Sometimes songs can describe how we feel coz at this moment, it is such a difficult situation to choose suitable words to make a proper sentence.. This song, Puaskah by Wali Band is exactly how I feel since few months ago till now... Being hurt by d love one is such a painful feeling, "mungkin hanya bila ku MATI, kau kan berhenti tuk menyakiti..." yes... i'd rather die then being hurt by you..